Wishing Well

 

Hoping on the long lost past

Is like shattering the shadows cast

Praying gestures at the tide

Will stem the waters coming rise

 

Rage nor anger change the fact

Regrets and tears can’t bring it back

Ripples in the poisoned water

Only hint at danger’s daughter

Glare into the wishing well

Watched as gold and silver fell

Distorting visions staring back

Only lies and demons black

Seeking answers from the deep

Weeping blood from wounds to deep

Mingled in that retched pool

Eternally I fight this duel

 

How tightly now I hold the rope

Lest I drop my pail of hope

All along I draw the water

Listening to it’s tainted laughter

Glare into the wishing well

Watched as gold and silver fell

Distorting visions staring back

Only lies and demons black

Drop the rope the answer’s clearly

Written where I will not see

For I hold on far to dearly

To a past that poisons me

 

Dripping, dripping, will not see

There is a future calling me

For I chase my shadow's asking price       

An pray my gestures will suffice

 

 

 

The Book of Love and Venom

 

I felt the sting of love again

Relentless drive of fear and pain

Who is next to twist the blade?

Fuel this fire I have made

 

Seeking truth in fury found

Straining love’s intrinsic bounds

Another passage full of sorrow

Live this lie again tomorrow

 

I can see the viper strike

Feel the venom in its words

Hear its toxic promises

Poison, just like you and me

 

Deadly bite spreads quickly now

Sickness courses through my veins

This potion love made just for me

Therein lies it’s prophesy

Chorus 1

It seems you ripped my life from me

Blind fury is consuming me

I’ll let my vengeful spirits dance

Redemption’s only for the weary

 

What was the promise you made me

“‘Till death parts us”, as I recall

“For better or for worse”, you said

I should be standing on your grave

Bitter taste of jealousy

Destruction in contained disease

Acid flavor of my rage

Romance turns a deadly page

 

The book of love is soaked in blood

From its victims one by one

“Come here”, it says, “just one more drop

Soon your chapter will be done”

 

Chaos is love’s symphony

Its music sways misleadingly

“Take my hand let’s dance some more

I’ll dash your hope onto my shore”

 

When this voyage’s course is run

And I know love can’t be won

Cold is all that’s left behind

Shattered vessel sailing blind

Chorus 2

Embers die and anger fades

Like memories of your breath in mine

An inner voice screams silently

I’ve got to let her go

 

Take my hand from my own throat

And let you on your way

It’s where you went so long ago

It’s me that’s free today

I know this snake has struck you too

Didn’t want what it did to you

Let’s squeeze the venom from our sorrow

Walk another mile tomorrow

 

A breath of chance recovery

In love and life’s discovery

Another painful lesson learned

But the book of love and venom burns…

 

 

Shady Kind of Faith

I can’t relate To the church bells on Sunday Tea time with cookies Flowers in springtime Holding hands in the sunset Telling the world I’m fine   I’ve never found comfort By singing a song Watching the fireflies Dance all night long Catching the breeze By a warm sunlit stream in the forest   Got a shady kind of faith Distant sense of right and wrong Learned love from desperation Learned letting go by holding on Found hope and faith in twilight Washing the past from sinful hands   Got a shady kind of faith It’s a bit dirty but its mine   Got a shady kind of faith It’s got stains I recognize   Got a shady kind of faith It’s the only one I know

Lost and alone Different and distant Unwholesome, instinctive Lustful and liable Sinful and soulful Its passion on a different scale   Got a shady kind of faith A darker kind of love Stained sense of purity Vision through a dirty window Overlooking a polluted plain Optimistic from a gut level perspective   Got a shady kind of faith In mankind’s survival   Got a shady kind of faith In good natured horizons   Got a shady kind of faith That I don’t have the answer   Got a shady kind of faith That I don’t have to know… anymore

The Chalice and the Blood

 

The chalice sits Its contents full The blood of Christ Is black within It speaks to me Of forgiven sin From deep inside The fortress doors And heavy stone Glass as stained As the life it hides From the house of God It calls to me Says take my terms And be like me Heed these words I preach to thee Now on your knees It’s pray or die And never forget Its time to tithe Accept my love Conditionally Drink from my cup Given for thee Confirmed by our Conformity

The body lies In the roadside dust Blood pooled and dried Blackened or rust It speaks to me Of forgiven sin Of torture and demise Undeserved Unmerciful An act stained With a preachers lies From a house of God The message came This one is different That one in not the same Heed these words I preach to thee Heathens and pagans The devils lot Inhuman in His eyes Purify and sanctify Accept my love Conditionally Drink form my cup Given for thee Burn all those not blessed By our conformity

 

Poor Poor Me

 

I know others have it

Much harder in life

Than me

 

Yet recently that realization

Hasn’t helped me overcome

My own troubled thoughts

 

Experience had proven

Time and time again

That fear is always at the root

 

That faith and action

Create the change I need

To overcome

 

But still I sit

Unchanged and uneasy

Demoralized

 

As of yet unwilling

To take the initiative

That might change my day

 

Why must I always wait

Until enough pain has accumulated

And all other options run out

 

Hoping against all odds

That someone or something

Will clear this difficult path on my behalf

 

Hoping I can avoid the work

The discomfort, the unease

That will cure my mental disease

 

Still I know others have it

Much harder in life

Than poor old me