February 22, 2005
-
Failure
It is a ravenous beast
Racing up my spine
Encroaching ever further
On my inner sanctum
My peace of mind
The pieces of my mind
Where courage and faith
Now shrink back
Eroding into self-laid lies
Into bitter cobblestones
That pave the road of fear
It is the little voice
That howls with madness
Telling me I can’t
I never really could
Why even bother
It will end up just the same
It is a hundred different ways to say
Don’t even try
Just give up and
Just give in
Have a seat in the mire
Called apathy and self loathing
We’ll swim with the suicidal
Where the water is warm
It will be just fine
You pathetic
Wretched
Little boy
It is a deadly dialogue
An inner sickness
A laughing twisted rant
Deftly obscuring
God’s embrace
It breeds deceit
Constricts courage
Destroys hope
Crushes dreams
And corrupts faith
The devil’s tongue
That lives and breaths
Inside my very skull
You make me sick
You’re disgusting
Hopeless
Useless
You’re nothing
A waste
Just a… vile reflection
In the mirror
So… quit
Just quit
It will all be over soon
Just quit
After all…
You never really tried, did you
Comments (11)
I left my main comments for this on the other site. It really resonated with me.
Tell Me…with all your beautiful writing and sincere wordings…
is this just reflections or are you questioning your God?
The poems are so strong…yet there is such a delicate plea for
answers here…
D
Woah…very powerful piece, obviously born from the depths of despair. Let me see if I can show you another perspective.
A failure is a message
That something didn’t go right
And often it can make a grown man cry
But there is no one on this earth
Who hasn’t failed at times
Except for those who didn’t even try
And those who have it easy
Would tell you that you’re wrong
To try so hard to gain a little ground
But remember that those blessed souls
Who are given everything
Are the first to fall when hard times come around
This was an amazing inspirational write. I’ve felt exactly the same, to the word. Keep writing. It will purge all those negative feelings. It did for me.
~Ben
I’m impressed. You even inspired blueboydiddly to write something new. I coulda posted that on my page…. anyway, what you’ve written here is a very intimate and painfully honest look into your soul. The mark of a great poet. Wish I could give more props.
So glad to read your new post. My stage right now is almost congruent with your poem. I tried to stand on my feet and kept stumbling. Particularly love your first stanza…just purely amazing.
I Recommend FIREEATER’s post on 21/02
I completely understand what you mean. I do intend to share my experiences through writing. Poetry, what have you. But, as far as trying to preach to someone something they are either unwilling or uninterested in hearing. I just don’t want to be a burden smacking against their plugged ears. Know what I mean jellybean?
I do agree with you in that we should share as far as our artistic output. Yes.
~lisa
you write very well here my man…
thank you always for lifting me up
always
I *smile*
Great soundtrack, dude. It sounds just like mine!
Wow…….’til the next….I will be back
Are you okay?
lisa