April 21, 2005
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New Found Thunder
Your Memory has faded
In the light and shadow
Of new experiences
Both wondrous
And tragic
Although years have passed
Your face was always
Crisp
And came readily to mind
In the joys and sorrows
Of others
In the lonely and quiet times
When I felt regret
Guilt and shame
And worthless
The smell of your hair
The little nervous motions
Your smile
So full of mischief
The full force
Of your concentration
And angry glare
Remain a ghost
A potent portent
And a gloomy cage
A fate
And a cruel misfortune
In a single image
And a thousand
Details
But now your details
Fade and blur
As another face
Another name
And another time
Wander through my history
It is another me
Making these experiences
Taking these steps
Looking into new eyes
Chancing another mystery
Imagining a new future
Discovering new hope
It is a cautious new heart
Stirring for the first time
After such a long
Seemingly endless
Foregone conclusion
Is this poetry?
No
Just a realization
A simple fact I know
But cannot always feel
Like the speed of light
Or the presence of God
A thing without relative measure
Yet one thing is certain
This one thing I feel
Today my heart beats
Today my heart beats
With a thunder
And today my day ends
With a smile
Comments (14)
Awesome
this is great!
New words from Scratch!! Yummy!
Dear man, these are wonderful words. The progression, past so full of clear things, into the present, with looks toward the future. It was like reading a goodbye letter that would never be sent, but needed to be voiced. And the last lines…
“Today my heart beats with a thunder
and today my day ends with a smile”
Awesome ending. It made me smile even with the tear in my eye.
Sooooooooooooooo glad you found some words, and even happier that you shared them.
warmest thoughts,
SA
That is beautiful!! And very deep. Sadly I can relate. Thank you for sharing it with us.
RYC: lolol I’m really not a tough girl, I’m just really stupid lol
huggles,
jadey lynn
I was so excited to see a new post. Just like your words ended with “and today my day ends with a smile” my day is starting with a smile because you touched me with your words.Im always afraid that the details will fade and blur. I want to remember everything like it was five minutes ago.
Your comment to me yesterday made me laugh so hard. I almomstm titled that poem “ODE OF A CO-DEPENDENT” Im glad someone else had the same thought.
Have a wonderful weekend my friend.
Poetry poetry poetry! I knew the muse would be back in full force eventually.
Who is this about? “Although years have past/your face was always/crisp”
Lovely words from the scared man running for the hills!
lisa
You have an amazing way with words. This piece was beautiful. Thank you.
This is really good. The ending is especially powerful, linking a smile to the rest…thunder to the heart. great words. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you Andreas! I read and commented back on that piece.
Magnificent is the finest compliment that comes to my mind. It’s good to be back posting; I just needed some time to readjust myself.
Peace.
this is a gorgeous piece…. very bright, very hopeful. i likes!
but thank you, thank you, thank you for your comment on my last piece
it’s a weird thing to go through all this right now, but it’s part of life… and it’s funny how well you understand the weirdness. so thanks! i love your comments, i lie in wait for their excellent advice… and of course their humor. so thanks also just for being real, being you, and being here for me. i’m feeling pretty damn good lately : )
see you soooooooooon!!!!!!
ha ha! Very worthy of a gal’s attention. Especially the “you’ve been running through my mind all day” part.
lisa
RYC: Thank you for such thought and insight. I know that I will eventually let the hurt past, in fact I look at that piece now and already am removed. But the great thing about writing is that I get it out. With all the intensity and hurt that I wish I could convey, with all of the what ifs I should share with him. But it just seems more productive to vent in the form of art, to let the hurt make words sing instead. Does that make any sense? But thanks for the comments and calming influence, and I appreciate your responding to my words.
I just realized that Bruni and I forgot to tell you how very much we like this one. We’re ending another day with a smile ourselves.